I miss you

There's this girl with whom I became friends 4 years ago (and fun fact: we met through here on DeviantArt, and her name is Nikki), and we were always very friendly with each other until I started making too many mistakes by constantly talking about controversial stuff despite her plea for me to stop, among other horrendous actions with which she was definitely not okay. In spite of everything I had done, I still loved her (platonically, although I do in fact have a crush on her) and never wanted to hurt her, and just kept getting carried away very often. Needless to say, she cut ties with me and I'd never been happy ever again... so unlike the girl in the drawing, I obviously would not be smiling at all, even if I was sitting on a bench in the same position as her, thinking.

tl;dr I miss my friend Nikki with a passion...